I know I want to blog.. I have wanted to for awhile. And if you think about it, it makes sense for me to blog. I read so many awesome blogs and I know that I can do it too! The benefits are obvious... It will give our family and friends a look into our life here and keep everyone up to date with what is going on in the Cog's Family. Not to mention a creative outlet for me! SO, if it makes so much sense I must ask myself "why did I set up this blog months ago and have yet to write one measly little post?" I had good intentions and I still do! But... and its a big BUT... I don't want to start and then not keep it up. Add to that I don't want to write anything till the blog itself is *perfect*. How can I possibly publish an unpolished product? And what will I write about that people will acctually WANT to read? What if I am boring? What if nobody reads it? Unreasonable to expect perfection from the start? Yeah, I guess it is. I know on a cerebral level that there must be a 'start' to everything... and if you never ever start then you can't be successful! The other side of that is if I never start no one will know that I failed. What makes me so afraid to fail that I wont even start? I tend to think that I am a procrastinator (and maybe I am) but is it possible that I am afraid of failing more than my lack of motivation to get started? I am beginning to think it is possible...
Now that I really start on this journey of inner reflection... I realize that I am in serious jeopardy of not meeting my New Year's Resolutions! ***GASP*** It's nearly September! Yikes! So let me write here, for all the world to see (should they stumble across this tiny little, boring blog), the newly rejuvenated ...
New Year's Resolutions (version 2.0) 2009
1. Eat healthy and drink lots of water. Which for me means no chips or crap food that I seem to live off of. Way less sugar and processed foods! I need to choose multi-grain, whole grain, all natural foods and less processed the better. yuck.
2. Drink Less. Really this was a resolution... but at the time I wrote these we had just returned from Mexico. So I 'have' been drinking less than what I drank there! Does this mean this resolution might even be successful? OH MY!
3. Move more. hmmm... I really should start this one soon... Definitely before cheer starts or I may actually DIE.
4. Make a budget - easy, right? - and FOLLOW it. Yikes. Really need to get on this one.
5. Spend quality time with Reg and Roxy. Sounds easy right? Except that quality time does not mean watching Two and Half Men and eating Ice Cream. Snap!
6. Learn (I mean really learn) to use my awesome camera. I used to know SLR.. honest! It cant be that hard to learn again, right? Along with this is a need to better organize my digital photos... some on this laptop, some on the other, some printed, some still on the memory cards!
7. Start Scrapbooking. I really want to!!! I have bought SOOO much paper, tools, adhesives and trims and just plain stuff! (we can keep that from Reg, right?) Have I 'scrapped' one page? NOPE. Again, I think my fear that it wont be perfect is stopping me ... really must work on that! I used to be pretty creative and I think I can do it again... just need to get the first one done and then it will be easy-peasy, right?
8. Be more organized. When I think back to when I was say 25... and I compare the 'me of today' with the 'me of 25' I know I am way more organized than I was then. Like WAY more. So, if that is true then why is it I run out of Toilet Paper but have four bottles of mustard in the pantry?
9. Read more. This one I am definitely winning... I have read so much this year! Halfway thru the Shopaholic series and the Twilight Saga. Oh, and Dan Brown's new novel is in stores on September 15th! so ya, no need to focus on this one!
10. Live here... Alberta that is. Really LIVE here. That means a change in my thinking... I shouldn't call Ontario "Home" anymore. I can't whine to Reg that I have no friends or family here and how much I miss everyone. It means getting out and meeting people, making friends and really LIVING here. *sigh* this one might be the toughest one ever...
Hopefully, writing them down and 'publishing' them means that I have a higher degree of committment! I am beaming confidence here people!
1. Eat healthy and drink lots of water. Which for me means no chips or crap food that I seem to live off of. Way less sugar and processed foods! I need to choose multi-grain, whole grain, all natural foods and less processed the better. yuck.
2. Drink Less. Really this was a resolution... but at the time I wrote these we had just returned from Mexico. So I 'have' been drinking less than what I drank there! Does this mean this resolution might even be successful? OH MY!
3. Move more. hmmm... I really should start this one soon... Definitely before cheer starts or I may actually DIE.
4. Make a budget - easy, right? - and FOLLOW it. Yikes. Really need to get on this one.
5. Spend quality time with Reg and Roxy. Sounds easy right? Except that quality time does not mean watching Two and Half Men and eating Ice Cream. Snap!
6. Learn (I mean really learn) to use my awesome camera. I used to know SLR.. honest! It cant be that hard to learn again, right? Along with this is a need to better organize my digital photos... some on this laptop, some on the other, some printed, some still on the memory cards!
7. Start Scrapbooking. I really want to!!! I have bought SOOO much paper, tools, adhesives and trims and just plain stuff! (we can keep that from Reg, right?) Have I 'scrapped' one page? NOPE. Again, I think my fear that it wont be perfect is stopping me ... really must work on that! I used to be pretty creative and I think I can do it again... just need to get the first one done and then it will be easy-peasy, right?
8. Be more organized. When I think back to when I was say 25... and I compare the 'me of today' with the 'me of 25' I know I am way more organized than I was then. Like WAY more. So, if that is true then why is it I run out of Toilet Paper but have four bottles of mustard in the pantry?
9. Read more. This one I am definitely winning... I have read so much this year! Halfway thru the Shopaholic series and the Twilight Saga. Oh, and Dan Brown's new novel is in stores on September 15th! so ya, no need to focus on this one!
10. Live here... Alberta that is. Really LIVE here. That means a change in my thinking... I shouldn't call Ontario "Home" anymore. I can't whine to Reg that I have no friends or family here and how much I miss everyone. It means getting out and meeting people, making friends and really LIVING here. *sigh* this one might be the toughest one ever...
Hopefully, writing them down and 'publishing' them means that I have a higher degree of committment! I am beaming confidence here people!
Well, that's it for the first post. It's done and overwith. My blog 'virginity' is gone. It wasn't that hard. I think I can do this... I know I can. So now, unless I tell people about this little blog of mine, no one will ever, ever know about it! Hmmm... tempting! Ugh, and now I need to think about an exciting new topic for the next post!
